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Makkalicious
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Country: United States
State: California
Birthday: 4/9/1982
Gender: Male
Interests: Worshiping God!, luving my family especially my Lil Sis ^_^ , taking pictures, exercising, making films, watching cartoons/movies, hanging out with friends.
Occupation: Student
Industry: Entertainment
Message: message me
AIM:  Makkalicious
Member Since:
4/10/2004
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| Random Thought:
I have a funny question to ask all of yous, if you could change one or more things about a sleeping habit what would it be? For example snoring, moving, sleeping on your stomach...etc.
Hehe for myself I wish I could stop drooling when I sleep. I thought about this when I was cleaning my sheets. Its funny how you find stains on your pillow and wonder where that came from HAHA. Well I guess that's just me but there is a plus side to it though. I don't snore 
Dare to share hehe?
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| Today was a good day. I got a good night's rest and made it to class on time. Then after class, I had dinner with a friend at Peanuts Cafe. Listened to my iPod with my favorite playlist and went to Dance Ministry. Sounds like a pretty swell day...
But how come I feel like crap. Driving home from practice, I love to think in my car. But tonight like some days, I feel like MY life has no significance. The world today, is so blessed with technology for everyone to communicate with each other. Mostly everyone I know has an email, or a cell phone and many screen names for instant messaging. However, I feel more distant than ever.
I look at my phone and I realize that I only use it so that I maybe in contact with people, but I rarely get calls myself. A buddy list full of sn's and a conversation can hardly be made. I guess I'm in a point in my life where everyone around me is busy with their lives. Wether it maybe because of their careers or commitments. I mean should fellow brothers and sister's of Christ meet only at small groups, or ministries, or at church only. Where its most convenient?
I pray and burden my feelings to the Lord. I also ask myself why I feel this way. I sometimes wonder what people are thinking of me, how they maybe judging me. I ask the Lord why must I depend on people's affection and how jealous I am of some people. How come some people cannot take me as a serious person? Am I dependable? Am I trustworthy? How come people don't care??? Why do people make me feel like a dick?
I wish I could explain it to my mother, and not get answers like "just keep yourself busy." I can't believe how a small answer like that, can fix a such a huge problem I feel.
I guess I've felt this way since I created the photo of myself on my xanga profile. Feeling as though I am being corrupted by the darkside but always hoping for Hope.
I wish I could be like Forrest Gump and just run... | | |
| CONGRATS to Mr. and Mrs. Tsang!!!
Hope you guys like the gift 
Here are some pics of the wedding....awww, stupid date thingy ma' giggy...
Some more pictures of Dave and Kat's wedding.... Congrats to you guys too!!!
WHAAA! Dai-Lo and Sai-Lo sooo Gangsta! 
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| Today became a day which I dread. The reason being, is that I finished
work and finished my homework assignments. I know that people who
are reading this, are probably think "Man! Ricky...you should feel
good." I would think so too. Unfortunately, even thou I am blessed with
all this free time. I could hardly find anyone to hang out with. Likely
my friend Conroy was willing to invite me to his house and watch a
movie I just bought, which is "Crash." And show me his new Ferrari.
Today got me wondering, if I had any friends who knows me or is feeling what I am feeling, which is loneliness 
Today I feel that God has blessed me with knowing a lot of people. But
as I observe and read (xanga's) of other people. I notice that I might
not be living such a fulfilling life. I ask myself, is this God's plan
for me? How come I compare? Dose anyone feel or in the same situation
as I??? So many random thoughts and no answers to any of them.
I guess people may not understand my situation. So I'm going to give it
a shot in explaining...I am from Stockton, CA which is in the valley. I
work part time at a retail store which sucks up my weekends, unless I
request it in advance (which is really $!@#y) and I currently
have a non-paid internship that pretty much takes up all my Fridays
this semester.
I wish I could see my family so much right now! But I can't really go
home to see my family over the weekends because of my schedule and they
also work on weekends. Stockton is also a 2 hr. drive...not really
worth it because of the current gas prices.
I can't believe how difficult it is to just find people to hang out and
relax with. I feel as I'm getting old that life is just about careers
and independency. Life was more enjoyable when I was 12. I used to
remember when I could just go across the street and ask my best friend
Kevin if he wanted to play baseball with the other kids from across the
street. Or go bike riding and see how far we can go from home...but
usually we just go to McDonalds. And play with our Ninja Turtle
figures and showoff who as the newest one... God I miss those times.
Now my friends are getting Married, Working, or got Errands to do. God I
miss everyone so much right now...I don't even know what to write
anymore...I feel like this xanga entry, misplaced and going nowhere.
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| Recap for Sept. 17, 2005
Wow it sure has been awhile since I did anything for my xanga. I pretty much felt like I wanted to give it up, cold turkey. But this weekend was awesome. The reason being is that my friends David and Kat are now a happily married couple. God couldn't have bless such a wonderful couple. And honestly its about time hehe you guys were meant to be from day 1, sorry but that's my opinion. I was also lucky to be able to be part of the festivities, meaning that they asked if I could be the DJ for their wedding. And FYI I'm not a real DJ; just a guy with a laptop and some MP3's  Real DJ's who can mix and scratch deserve major props. It's like playing an instrument, the more practice the better you are. However, I don't think I could ever do it again if someone asked me. Its a lot of work because I would have to figure out with the couple on what songs could or should be played. Throughout the night I played songs that I think would flow and go with the pace of the crowd, which I didn't do so well.  played a couple of slow songs when I probably should have kept playing dance music, sigh...ahh well, live and learn I guess. Another highlight of the eveing was all of the friends and past AACF'ers that attended the wedding. Which also made me very heart broken to see them go towards the end of the reception. I'm glad that a small group of us were able to hang out just a little longer at In & Out, because we were still sooo hungry. The evening couldn't have been any better and the newlyweds were also able to also make it out. I understand how difficult it might have been since it is their wedding night...thanks again Dave and Kat. You made my night. | | |
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